I'm so excited!

Ya, so I have a few photo shoots scheduled for this week. It's gonna be so much fun. I just can't contain me excitement! I'm doing Subscene's(an awesome musician) and a few of my friends. I finally got up my Flickr. And My new Nikon D60!!! Omgz it totally pwns the n00bs.


On the downside.
This whole guy situation is really starting to suck.

And I think I'm totally crushing on Morgan XD

Do you ever dislike something so strongly you feel like you could cry?

That's how I feel about school lately. For the first time ever I failed a class. And the class I failed is oneof my favorite subjects! In English I did allll my work...but turned barely any of it in. I feelso stupid. Like everythinis starting to go downhill when it somesto school. I'm barely passing math and Spanish, too. I just feel so stupid all the time now. Even though I'm a big reader I have a horrid vocabulary, and no matter how hard I tryI still have bad study habits, and I'm so bad at math it makes me feel like a bad student. But it's all good... Even though I'm not book smart at least I have some common sense still.


But I guess I do have something to be happy about. My photography has gotten so much better lately. I'll be making a Flickr soon. So hopefully my computer won'tmess up before I get the photos on there. I'm seriously terrified of my computer messing up and losing all my pictures. I should probably invest in one of those external hard drive thingies.

I'm a child of the Internet generation.

As I sat in my English class trying to write a descriptive paragraph(our assignment) I realized that I type faster than I can write, even if I have to look at the keyboard lol, and that I don't speak out loud nearly as well as I type things in an e-mail. I can write or say anything I want to on this super highway of information, but occasionally, in person, I can't say anything at all. Most of the time it's because I get too nervous to even function.

As you just read(in the title, silly) I'm of the Internet generation.

I spend more time on the world wide web than I do watching TV, that magical little box in your living room that rots your brain away(but I still probably read more than I'm on the internet XD).



Ya, this is just something I thought of today, and wanted to say something about.

I miss you anyway.

Two years. That's how long I waited for you. You say that you were the one waiting on me, but if you really were, then you must have never noticed what was really going on, and how much I cared about you. When all the other girls fucked you over, I tried to be there for you. And I was. I give up now, though. No more trying. No more waiting. I realize it's time for both of us to move on. Even if I don't want to. I hope that maybe one day, things will get better, and you might want to be friends again. Like we used to be. Staying up on the phone, and you being the only one that I could talk to about things that most people wouldn't understand. You were there, but now you're no where to be seen. All because I made a few, extremely stupid, mistakes that I regret. You're too ignorant to realize that I'm sorry for the things I said and did. Also, for the things I didn't do.

I know I shouldn't,
but I miss you.